Monday May 26, 2014

Today I woke with nerves and a bit of fear. I didn't want to get up and take a test but at the same time I needed to know. Even if the answer was no not this time I needed to know. My sweetheart said I could wait and take the test tomorrow but that wouldn't solve anything, just delay the knowing.

I went to take the tests. We decided to use two different brands just to be sure. We snuggled while we waited and dozed back asleep. The 3 minutes passed much faster than expected. One test showed a result the other appeared to not be working. 

I took the test to show him we had a winner. He put on his glasses and turned on the lamp...it said pregnant!

(We did discover the other test worked, I just looked at the wrong side, two tests confirming yes!)

We are both so excited and happy to be having a baby. A baby that was created with love and faith. We are also very nervous. What is to come, how to pay for all the things we need, maternity leave, will we make it to the 2nd trimester, how will our family and friends react....and many more thoughts.

Baby is due early Feb according to online calculators. I will be calling an ob/gyn tomorrow to schedule our first appointment. I also need to run to the store for some pre-natal vitamins. I plan on writing to this blog to capture how we progress with the pregnancy, how our love continues to grow and any other random thing that comes to mind.

We are not telling family and friends until we are closer to the 2nd tri to be safe. Although we did agree we could each tell one person before then. We will see how long I can keep the secret at work. If morning sickness gets too noticeable I may have to say something early. I am planning on telling my family when I gone up for a visit this summer, I want to see their farce when I tell them the great news.

I think I knew on some level I was pregnant before any signs, and I certainly hoped I was before I was even late. I don't know how to explain it. Maybe a feeling I had someone with me that wasn't there before.  With every fiber of me I do hope that this special spirit will make it the 9 months needed to bake.

First off my symptoms....in no particular order
1- my breasts are tender, very firm and feel full. My sweetheart noticed a difference too.
2- being tired, nothing too unusual
3- no end of cycle headache
4- more facial acne than usually for end of cycle and some on my upper torso
5- I do have some cramping, nothing major
6- heartburn / acid reflex... Nothing really unusual for end of cycle
7- gums bleeding when brushing my teeth
8-dizziness
9- minor nausea, did almost got air sick on flight home from DE during turbulence. That is unusual.